Hey its Thursday and we are NOT at the hospital. Yesterday we had labs drawn just like always and just like always they called to give us the results. His white count is still down so we get to stay home for a few more days! Yeah! We are scheduled for Wednesday to be admitted if our labs are good. I would kinda like to just get it over with but I am excited to be home. This is the only summer I get. When he is discharged again it will be the week school starts (or really close to it) so this is summer for me. The down side is he has one medication that is only good for 14 days so it expires and we have to refill it. Even after insurance it is really expensive and its a bummer because I have some left but once it expires it looses potency so we can't use it. Oh well.
At least it is summer, no one is sick, and Critter is almost walking! He takes about three steps and then sits down. I'm hoping he will be walking into the hospital when we go back! Its amazing, when he was diagnosed he was a baby...now he is a little boy. He is climbing on everything and I wonder if it will be harder to contain him in a hospital room. Maybe I can bring a baby treadmill in to wear him out. I never thought that I would have to wear down a kid with cancer. I guess these are all good things. We are so blessed to have such a strong little boy.
I've heard that the Lord will never give you something you cannot handle and although its been tough on me Critter is obviously handling it well. It makes me wonder if this challenge was not meant for him but for me. I hope I learn what I am supposed to learn from this. I have ask the Lord over and over again what I'm supposed to be getting out of this but I never get a response. I never feel alone but he is not telling me why. I'm not sure if he ever answers that question.
Patience, faith, humility, strength, compassion, hope, gratitude, love, family unity....I think you have shown all of these things and much more. PS I like the dark blue writing, it is much easier to see. :)
ReplyDeleteI feel the same way about questions you ask. You know He is there, just don't get the answer always. I always end up getting it. It's just much later than I though it should be.
ReplyDeleteI see myself through your words! There were days where Taylie was so happy and energetic. People would walk passed our room and ask if that child has cancer. It's amazing what lessons are learned and the strength you gain through such and experience. You are amazing! So soon you will be at home to stay. Anyone and everyone will be able to hug that little critter and you won't worry. He will be splashing and playing in the water with no line to interfere. The mask will be permanently hung on the wall never to be worn again! And you will be together with all your babies and your dear husband at home the way that it should be. Hug him and hold him tight. You are getting so close! We are praying for him and you to have the strength you need to keep it up day in and day out. Love ya!
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